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#1 ArchangelOfTheLamb

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 04:20 PM

Hey everyone - some of the longer-term members may remember me from a few years back as Emperor_Matej_I. Due to a number of factors, I haven't been online much lately and certainly haven't visited At0mic for a few years.

 

Those of you who know me may be aware that I was practising as a solicitor in Canberra. Although I initially loved the work, a number of stressors arose last year which put me off the job. The crux of my job dissatisfaction is that lawyering involves dealing with a lot of negative emotions and negative people. Most of my work involved dealing with people who were going through difficult circumstances - they didn't call or visit when things were going well, but rather when there was a big legal mess for me to clean up. This took a significant toll on my mental health - I became very depressed and my anxiety levels were worse than when I was going through university exams.

 

My situation was not helped by the fact that I separated from my partner of 5.5 years. I had invested heavily in this relationship and not just financially. I looked after my partner and supported us both when he was diagnosed with cancer - this included spending about a month in Sydney whilst he was in hospital after major surgery and being the sole breadwinner for about two years whilst he recovered sufficiently to be able to work again. This relationship ended somewhat acrimoniously and my partner told me that he didn't love me for about the last three years of the relationship and that rather, he stayed with me because he needed a place to stay. Not only did this make me very angry, but it crushed my self-esteem and made me even more depressed. After the breakup, I realised that my ex had been even more manipulative and emotionally abusive during our relationship - I only knew about the tip of the iceberg due to his deceitfulness. I broke up with him on 13 February 2015 and I haven't really looked back since. I'm still single and will happily remain thus until I find someone that I can fully trust and that won't abuse me.

 

I started my own business (as a solicitor practising alone) late last year, mostly for lifestyle reasons so that I could have more control over my working hours. Although things started picking up earlier this year, I nevertheless became disillusioned with the law and the legal system generally. I saw first-hand the effect that the legal system had on many people who participated in it and just how much the law often destroyed lives. Furthermore, through my time in practice, I realised just how stupid many of our laws were and just how fundamentally flawed the entire system was. Running my own practice was a bit of a rollercoaster ride that brought me into contact with the good, the bad and the ugly throughout Canberra. It was a great learning experience, but it ultimately showed me that litigious legal practice is not for me. It is far too negative and far too dirty for my liking.

 

Furthermore, due to my mental health issues, my well-being spiralled downwards from last year onwards. I battled with depression, anxiety, psychotic episodes, paranoia, addiction and severe trust issues. I have been lied to, robbed and used too many times to count and as a result, I am very much down-and-out at the moment financially and materially. I basically have to start over from zero to rebuild my life. Nonetheless, I'm definitely on the mend and feeling a million times better than a few months ago. I recently read a book on mindfulness and living in the present which greatly helped my mental health recovery. I've also found God and have been re-reading the Bible. Many of you would remember me as a demon child that hated religion, but reading the Bible again after having the life experiences that I have now caused me to reconnect with the faith that I'd lost throughout my life.

 

Finally, I've decided to change careers and move into something a little bit more constructive. As such, I've enrolled in an IT certificate and am hoping to get into programming and software development. This has always been an interest in mine, but it's one that I neglected whilst I was with my ex because of the teasing I would cop when I did anything fun involving computers. That's why I've decided to create a new At0mic account and get back onto the forums. I've noticed a number of names that I remember and I'm glad to see that many of the old-timers in the community are still around. I hope you've all been doing well and that I'll be in touch more now that I've started getting my life back on track!

 

 


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#2 Chaos.Lady

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 05:00 PM

Welcome back.  It's sad to see how much you've been through, but great to see you working on coming out the other side!

 

Good luck.  This place hasn't really changed all that much.  Like all of us, it's just wound down to a slower pace a bit these days. :)


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#3 Rybags

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 05:00 PM

Welcome back, matej!

 

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 05:13 PM

:)

 

I'm not totally sure software dev is the right thing but it can be fun, law most definitely is not, I never did think you had the temperament for it to be honest. Some of my best friends are successful lawyers, but they are also assholes, you are not :)

 

Anyway, welcome back, as Chaos says, same place, doped on Xanax a bit but same place :)

 

Cheers


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Posted 26 March 2016 - 06:23 PM

* waves* .

I feel exhausted just reading your post ArchangelOfTheLamb.

You know you've got a library worth of great material if you wanted to put it all down and make some money ( to retire on )

from the characters you've dealt with so far...

Anyway Arch, welcome home :)


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#6 TheManFromPOST

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 06:28 PM

I know that name



#7 Cybes

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 06:44 PM

Re-Hi, EMI! Good to see you're still amongst the living - if somewhat bruised. :)

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#8 @~thehung

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 06:48 PM


no pung intended

#9 ArchangelOfTheLamb

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Posted 26 March 2016 - 06:58 PM

* waves* .

I feel exhausted just reading your post ArchangelOfTheLamb.

You know you've got a library worth of great material if you wanted to put it all down and make some money ( to retire on )

from the characters you've dealt with so far...

Anyway Arch, welcome home :)

 

Yeah I've been thinking of writing a book - I am actually going to start writing down some chapters in my spare time. I have volumes of interesting material, though most of it is stuff that I wouldn't release for a while in order to protect the innocent (and not so innocent LOL)!


Re-Hi, EMI! Good to see you're still amongst the living - if somewhat bruised. :)

 

Funny you should say that, given that I have seven stitches in my face after spending nearly 2 days lost in the bush. Although the serenity was pleasant, it's good to be back in civilisation! (That one's a long story as well...)


"Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares." Hebrews 13:2

"These sayings are faithful and true: and the Lord God of the holy prophets sent his angel to shew unto his servants the things which must shortly be done." Revelation 22:6

"And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last. Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city." Revelation 22:12-14

"I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches. I am the root and the offspring of David, and the bright and morning star." Revelation 22:16


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Posted 26 March 2016 - 07:08 PM

Go for fiction Arch ! Or at least only loosely based on reality ... after all, the idea is to make your nestegg,

not necessary to relive the crap too. Got to have some fun! Make a Splash ! :P~


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#11 Waltish

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Posted 27 March 2016 - 04:28 AM

Hello AOTL Its good to hear from you.

 

You have certainly had a rough time of of it, Yes I know understatement.

 

Cheers Angel.


Edited by Waltish, 27 March 2016 - 05:38 AM.

? After All This Time ?

 

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#12 elvenwhore

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Posted 27 March 2016 - 05:18 AM

Welcome back Emperor and hello ArchangelOfTheLamb! It's so good to see you around again :-) That is one seriously badarse nickname :-)

That's a lot of life you've lived in the intervening years, a lot of it unkind. Heartening to read about your plans for the future. Good stuff, man :-)

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#13 Director

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Posted 28 March 2016 - 02:44 PM

Howdy stranger! Sounds like you've had quite the roller-coaster ride, glad to hear you might have turned the corner. :) It's never fun being in the shit, but boy does it grow nice flowers eventually.

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Posted 28 March 2016 - 05:10 PM

Welcome back! I see you're moving into my profession. Good luck as companies are outsourcing IT jobs to India these days.


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Posted 28 March 2016 - 05:36 PM

o/

 

Welcome back! I see you're moving into my profession. Good luck as companies are outsourcing IT jobs to India these days.

 

IT sure, software dev... there's a huge shortage.


Edited by .:Cyb3rGlitch:., 28 March 2016 - 05:36 PM.

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#16 SonOfNoddy

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Posted 29 March 2016 - 03:22 AM

I have no idea who you are but welcome back! I'm sure dad can tell me some stories...


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#17 Director

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Posted 29 March 2016 - 06:48 AM

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I have no idea who you are but welcome back! I'm sure dad can tell me some stories...

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Ask him about the Witch King Helmet!

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#18 SonOfNoddy

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Posted 29 March 2016 - 07:56 AM

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I have no idea who you are but welcome back! I'm sure dad can tell me some stories...

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Ask him about the Witch King Helmet!

 

 

Ok


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Posted 29 March 2016 - 08:23 AM

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I have no idea who you are but welcome back! I'm sure dad can tell me some stories...

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Ask him about the Witch King Helmet!

 

 

And pineapples.

 

Good to see you back around Matej, you had a few people worried a while a go.



#20 SonOfNoddy

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Posted 29 March 2016 - 09:05 AM

Pinapples?


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