So I've been nostalgic the past few days, reading all my old pm's, looking up old threads. Simpler times. I joined the forums when I was probably 14 or 15 years old...which is a heck of a long time ago.
But the downside of the nostalgia dives, is I've been reminiscing about long lost love. The young simple giddy love.
The pesky one that got away. Or rather, I chased away and sabotaged and never gave a chance. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with where I am. But I can't help beating myself up just a little bit about the way I conducted myself. I never thought I'd be 'worth' him, so I just ended up fucking up the opportunities I was given. And I was certainly given more opportunities than I deserved.
He'll probably never read this, or if he does, he probably won't know I'm talking about him. But it's better that way....to be cryptic. Life moves on and no matter how much you want to go back in time and seize the day, you can't.
So how about you guys, eh? Do you have an elusive one? Do you ever feel just a little bit sad about it?