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  1. hulkster

    Trust issues not helping me move on.

    Thanks all for your thoughts. There is no right or wrong answer for me here, just me talking to you guys about whats going on with me. I have built the biggest and thickest walls and dont like the idea of letting someone in only to have to rebuild new walls. I doubt it will happen with this person but I also doubted it last time, and the time before that. I do love my current way of living, love my time at home on my own and really dont want to give it up at all. If it comes to the crunch I think Ill put my sanity first and go through the last 3rd of my life as a single guy. No hurt that way.
  2. I'm having trouble letting someone in fully. My history with relationships hasn't been great, probably mostly my fault. I have always been weary of people in general, but after a few relationships that went pair shaped I have major trust issues. First marriage at 19 ( Yeah, I know) ended after finding my wife with another guy. One two year relationship ended when I got home to find the house empty, except for a spoon, bowl and fork. That morning she got her licence back ( after losing it for 18 months) and was the same day we registered the XY falcon I had been building her over those 18 months. She wanted it in her name so we did, she dropped me at work and that was the last I ever saw her or the car. Second marriage ended 4 years ago after I walked out after 21 years. I since found out she had met her new husband in the last 12 months of our marriage and that's when things changed for me. Had a two year relationship with a women that was living with her Husband. Told me they lived separate lives etc, separate bedrooms, separate everything. And yep, I believed her until her husband followed her to my place and found out about me. All made sense later on, all the secret squirrel stuff. They were definitely still sharing a life. Another relationship cost my about $12,000 in cash loans to a long time friend that later become a partner. Was told afterwards by her sister she set me up. There are more, but no need to go into any more details on my stupidity. BUT, I have met a very nice girl and I've been with her for the last 12 months, we have fun, we care about each other. She has her house and I have mine. We spend most weekends together. She has recently mentioned maybe one day moving in together. That scares the shit out of me. I love our time together but I LOVE my time too. I guess I'm just waiting for the day it goes pear shaped and that is unfair to her and probably me. Currently on medication for my bi-polar but still have issues and not sure its helping with my decision making. Letting her all the way is the hardest part for me but I think she needs me to. I have no real question, just venting I guess to strangers
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    The most special people

    First logged on about 18 years ago, different time back then. The internet was still a baby that we all enjoyed but as its grown its turned into not such a great entity in my eyes. I have recently learnt to put my phone down and only pick it up when it rings or if I need to ring. Sitting on the couch reading stalkbook stuff is something I once enjoyed but now find it more annoying than fun. Still haven't made the move to delete the account as it is a good way to keep a track on my kids ( another story) . These forums have and will always be important to me for many reasons. I modded here for a long time, seen lots come and go, I've upset people that I really regret and have had more than one hissy fit. Not proud of those but dealing with lots of issues at the time made me do and say things that I will always regret and it probably cost me a few friends here. I cant change that but time moves on as we all do and I still find myself dropping in here every few days just to see whos around and what's happening with the forums.
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    Red Dead Redemption 2 - My thoughts

    My son has it on playstation. Looks awesome. Im after a new game myself and have thought about it for my xbox.
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    Did something just happen?

    Good news all round.
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    Where does everybody live these days?

    Live in a little place called Blackwall in Northern Tassie. Being a single guy and one income I bought a small place I've been renovating over the last 2 years. Couldnt afford one already renovated but I have been enjoying doing the work myself.
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    Forum downtime / new feature testing

    It's pretty.
  8. I thought as we get older we are meant to slow down and ease into old age. I was always scared of aging. I'm 54 and busier than I've ever been. I live alone in the little place I bought a couple of years back after my divorce and have spent most weekends working on the house or in the yard. Work is still very busy and my two grown up kids still give me reason for worry most of the time. Ive just started restoring another old holden to sit along side "Betsy" and I am also doing a bit of backyard bodywork to help pay for the house renos and car resto. I find myself in bed most nights by 9:00 and asleep by 9:01 I am doing what I enjoy but am also starting to feel all 54 years. Still haven't had my Knees replacements done and not sure I can go much longer before they will become a priority. My back will never be good but isn't stopping me do what I want to and in general my health seems ok now. Looking forward I cant see myself slowing down intentionally, but as I get older I guess the body will start dictating what I will and wont be able to do. I enjoy life, drink too much, carrying 15 kilos too many, but basically getting older isn't as daunting as I once thought.
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    What Did You Watch Lately ?

    For some reason I watched episode 1 of Mcleods Daughters. I am now up the season 8 episode 3. Didn't watch it back in the day, but am now. 14 years on. I have no life :(
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    Automotive Paint Technologies

    Did my apprenticeship on Acrylic and enamel. Then came 2 pack. Still do a few backyarders and still mostly use Acrylic and the occasional 2 pack job. As for the new stuff I have no idea.
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    Online or bricks&mortar ...

    I'm an on-line type of guy. Mainly because it"s easier. Life is far to busy to try and get around to different places paying bills. :(
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    After 17 years, it's time to look back...

    Those were the days lol
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    What is Your Biggest Regret in Life?

    There are plenty of things in my life i regretted at the time. But not acknowledging my mental heath issues when they were diagnosed is the one thing I wish I could go back and rectify. I think If I had of I would have turned out a much better person in general. The last 2 years has been really tough but i feel ive turned a corner and now I try and look to my future and make it the best I can. Be the best person I can be and fix some of the hurt Ive caused.
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    A bit about me

    Its been awhile :) The last couple of years have been full on to say the least. I walked out of a 20 year marriage. Tough thing to do. Sold our house had had to start everything afresh. Most of our friends dumped me because I was the one to leave but thats ok. I have since bought myself a little place and have been renovating it slowly. Just me and my dog. I have had 2 relationships in the mean time, last one cost me money I dont have but a lesson learnt (again). I was to move to Queensland but that was part of the ploy. I still have my EK Holden but sold the charger and HG ute I was restoring. I mainly stick to myself nowadays, dont socialise too much. I was diagnosed with Bi-polar which wasn't a surprise. There was a reason I was like I was and that was good. My son just got his Ps ( more worry lol) and my daughter is kicking arse at Uni. So, I'm ticking along nicely at the moment. :)
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    How do you do it?

    That's unfortunate :( What do you do Hulks? An chance of trying to "Be the change you want to see" in the workplace? I do it because I have to. No choice. With my knees and back problems I have about 5 working years left in me. I have bills that need paying and a house I need to own before I cant work anymore. That's my motivation.
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