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  1. komuso

    What's on your mind?

    Probably a wall of text coming. I'm kind of approaching the end of my PhD. I tell ya, every one of my insecurities has been brought to the fore in this process. Social insecurity, because I've moved to another city where I had no family or friends. To upheave things a little more, my girlfriend still lives overseas, so we've mostly been apart since the beginning of 2016. I've had a bunch of folks, cycling buddies, who I started training and racing with a few months after I moved here. In the beginning it was a really small, tight knit bunch, and very different from your regular-up-themselves cycling wankers. They were inclusive and easy to be around, which was very appealing to me. I don't handle big group dynamics very well. As the group grew however, and keeps growing, little sub groups are forming, and I don't like that much. I began to notice exclusivity among folks, and whether I'm on the inside or outside of that doesn't really matter, because I hate seeing it happen, and having my own fears tapped by it. I pulled back from it all a while ago and just rode by myself, tried to reconfigure my expectations, and have just started engaging with them again in small doses. I've gotta get my social needs met elsewhere though. Intellectual insecurity is a thing too, because I'm not really a trained researcher, but rather, a musician who does research. Being in that position has some significant advantages, though. I've basically invented an analytic framework from scratch. It's innovative, and no one has done anything like what I have before. I presented at an overseas symposium in July, and my talk generated a lot of questions and interest. It even got to the point where listeners were questioning and arguing with each other, which was great. Nobody asked me a question that really dug at the core of what I'm doing though, so it's reassuring that no one is approaching this topic like I am, but at the same time, it's a bit lonely out here. Creative insecurity, I suppose you might call it. Doing music is a stupid career choice at the best of times, but doing traditional music of another culture has gotta be dumb. I'm hopelessly intrigued by it and infatuated with it, absolutely compelled to do it, but this kind of desire is not easy. People frequently ask me, "But what are you going to do with it?" Anyone who asks that question could never do it, but it's so profound to me that there wasn't really a choice. Since 2009, I've had one job for two years, which paid me over $1000 a day, and I only worked two days a month. I've been on scholarships the rest of the time, which is fucking amazing, and I'm full of gratitude to the universe for that. My current scholarship runs out in less than a month, so I've gotta work while I finish my thesis. Though I have a few nice things, I don't have much money, but I was thinking the other day that even if I had more money, it would not fundamentally change the way I go about my current pursuits - I'd still be doing the same things. I guess that means I'm doing what I want already. Not being in a sharehouse would certainly be nice. Apart from that, all I'd really do with more money is engage in better quality distractions. One major distraction has been cycling, and I am as fit as a motherfucker at the moment. Recently did vo2max and lactate threshold tests in a lab, and got pretty decent scores. Out of the last six races I've been in, I came first in three, and third in two. Later this week I'll be racing in a national race. Amateur, but it's still national level, and it's a chance to maybe pull on a national jersey. My role will basically be the shielded sprinter, kept fresh for delivery to the line by two other team mates. Very much looking forward to that. Fuck mate, cycling is the only thing that provides simple enjoyment at the moment. I've bitten off a big chunk of life and I'm chewing like a bastard. I'm not tired of life, but tired from it. Been running over threshold for too long. Gotta get this thesis done. That's what's on my mind.
  2. komuso

    i see dead people

    Paul Sherwen, cycling commentator. Off into the sunset.
  3. komuso

    Farmers That Need Help.

    I don't know much about farming, but surely its important to take into account a wider range of factors than simply looking at cost/profit, such as wider international market forces, environmental impact, the effects the local supermarket behemoths have on farm productivity and profitability, and what types of crops are subsidised? Same as with any cultural actitivities, such as music - if only considered from a cost/profit viewpoint, no-one would do it, and the follow on effects of that would be greater than simply having nothing to listen to.
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    Stickers

    I like the Gigabyte condoms
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    Beth vs Nathaniel.

    Junkies can get pretty creative when they need to get on.
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    Post Your Latest Real Life Purchase!

    Just bought a plan press from fb marketplace, $100. Well used but it's heavy, solid, and in good nick. I bought it for my girlfriend, who collects rocks, shells, insects, and so on, for storage and easy access. She likes being in contact with these things to give her ideas for motifs and textures in her paintings. The thing is huge - just a wee bit smaller than an A0 sheet. She won't be moving out to Australia for at least a year yet, but I should have a pretty decent set up for her once she gets here.
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    i see dead people

    By all means, please do, if you think it'll be appreciated. It's given a few of my mates a quiet laugh
  8. komuso

    i see dead people

    Excellent suggestion, Rybags, thanks!
  9. komuso

    i see dead people

    I couldn't help myself. I recorded and mixed this on my iphone, and I wish I could give a bit more time to sorting out the melodies. Also, I only have one length of flute with me right now, which limits my harmonic choices. In short, it is rough as, but I give you.... The Last Ninja on shakuhachi! https://www.dropbox.com/s/pt92rz4mxah0dil/ninjaisshakuhassun.mp3?dl=0
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    i see dead people

    That brings back some memories! Great but frustrating game.
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    Do own many things that others wouldn't?

    5 from 4 string, or 4 from 3? I used to own an 1873 Rubner, beautiful old thing. Neville Whitehead had done his thing to it though, which kept it functional, but made it rather difficult to play. In fact I was standing behind it for the Atomic Nekkid competition v2!
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    Do own many things that others wouldn't?

    Forged 4140 steel. My brother agrees that engine coolant can do the job. He uses linseed oil or kerosene.
  13. komuso

    Do own many things that others wouldn't?

    I have quite a few unique things. Knives, spoons, espresso tamp, and tools including a very cool hammer, all made by my brother. Lots of ceramics from friends. Have made my own ceramics, furniture, tools, an air conditioner. My instruments are also unique - can't really be otherwise with a bamboo flute. Even out of the store bought stuff I have, I often tweak or modify it in some way, and repair things when they break. I'm loathe to buy things that are unnecessary, or that I can find or make myself. Equally loathe to throw away things that can be fixed. Some of the stuff my brother made...
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    What Did You Watch Lately ?

    That would be understandable. Like sticking a dog's or cat's face in its own when it's dropped one on the carpet. I never got through an entire Ali G ep either. I was able to get through Ali G back in the day - not that I was ever really much of a fan. I don't remember Ali G targeting and drawing out ideologies like he does now, though.
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    What Did You Watch Lately ?

    I think Cohen is great, and I like what he does, but I just don't have the minerals to sit through the stupidity. I couldn't finish Borat, or the first episode of this. And the worst is last, you say! Fark.
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