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    *cough*

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    the real world

    Well, I'm not disagreeing with you medication does work for some people. What I will say is that at least one of those drugs made me absolutely flat that was Lexapro, and that took me quite some time for my levels of emotions to return to something resembling normal. I've tried a few other SSRI and SNRIs, I've also tried tetracyclics which worked reasonably well in lower doses but made me feel vile as soon as I started upping the dosage. I've been on the medication merry go round and it doesn't particularly work for me. I am, mostly, fine these days. I've chosen other paths, CBT being one of them, mindfulness and awareness another, a better diet/lifestyle and less work/life stress are among yet others. And yeah, I've dealt with this stuff for at least 10 years, so have a reasonable amount of experience, I've also seen a few scary things in hospitals at times. I trust your experience, I'm just really talking from personal experience about what hasn't worked for me and another person I knew. Your a trained medical practitioner though and I'm just a person, I'm not trying to subvert your level of qualification.
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    the real world

    Me and medication don't see eye to eye scruffy, nor do I with docs that have an attitude of "here take these pills you'll be right mate". I would also rather not feel like I've consumed nothing other than a concoction of chemicals that makes me violently ill, or have no feelings at all... sure the anxiety might disappear and sometimes the depression and helplessness that comes with it, but as does feelings of being happy, sad, or in between. I've learned to deal with it mostly naturally, some changes in lifestyle, some psychology. As for nose bleeds and fevers, I was talking of the milder kind. No need to twist my words there and yes I do believe mental health is a serious issue and that crisis units are an important part of hospitals when the shit hits the fan and people like myself can't cope.
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    the real world

    It's very hard to explain when the only real "sensation" you have some times is "I am going to die, this must be what dieing feels like, I don't feel safe in my own body right about now" couple that with intense chest pains, numbness/pins and needles, dizziness, an irregular/racing heart beat, etc... I have the intestinal fortitude sometimes to tell myself that none of the sensations I am feeling are real and can sit there mostly quietly, or pace around an emergency ward, but that's only come through learning about what goes on when I have attacks like that and knowing I'm almost probably not going to keel over and die right there and then. That said sometimes I just don't feel safe sitting around at home dealing with shit like that. As messed up as the above sounds and some may chose to call me a certain variety of cake, I probably don't have it as bad as some other people, my risk of self harm is fairly low, but that's what annoys me, knowing what other people like myself but with more serious mental health issues go through only to be turned away as low priority at triage. But yeah, coming back to debilitating, it pretty much stops me from doing anything relatively normal at the worst of times, I failed a unit at university just because I couldn't get my head around what I was going through and it stops me from actually going out and doing normal stuff like going to shops, talking to people, or working, etc... so yeah, debilitating is one word for it. I've learned to live with it as best as one can but that doesn't mean its not debilitating.
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    Replace your optical drive

    That's actually a cool idea Rob, an ARM CPU for most day to day tasks, but having a real CPU if you need it as well. Kind of like laptops that have on-board video as well a dedicated GPU. In fact it could be done for desktop PC's as well. The problem really is a lack of software support for ARM CPU's with a desktop OS unless you're planning on running Linux. Both Apple and Microsoft basically have ARM versions of their OS, if you count iOS as a version of OS X, there's just not a lot of support for a desktop version yet. Having used iOS though I can't say I could get used to using it as my primary desktop on a day to day basis, and tend to think it would be a bit hard to use on a day to day basis for my primary machine. In saying that however I'm sure Android/iOS/Chrome will only become better to use on a day basis if products such as this gain popularity.
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    Embarrassing Simple Things You Dont Know How to Do

    That's easy, quantify it... you know how long a football field is right? Well that's 100 metres, 90 metres for American football. As for myself, I still forget my left and right sometimes until I gain my bearings again. I didn't learn to tie my shoes laces until I was about 10 or 11, and I never worked out gladwrap until i was about 18 odd... Assuming you're talking about soccer here, an aussie rules footy ground is more than 100m. Yeah, AFL generally makes do with cricket fields as it was originally a sport designed to keep cricketers fit in the off season as far as I'm aware. I am well north of the magical AFL line in the sand though.
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    the real world

    To the people without real medical issues, get the fuck out of the emergency wards and either A) Find a 24 hour doctor OR B) Wait until the morning I have had real, sometimes serious fucked up, I'm going to die, debilitating, mental health issues related to anxiety/depression and get sick and tired of waiting behind someone who has a fever or a nose bleed because I might be able to restrain myself and not show any outward symptoms in a waiting room so as not to disturb everyone else in it. From experience the triage system rarely works for those with mental health issues even when I've gone to the only hospital near me that has a mental health care ward. A friend of my brothers tried to get help from that same hospital but ended up killing himself instead.
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    So I'm using Linux...

    I bow down before your superior understanding...
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    Embarrassing Simple Things You Dont Know How to Do

    Asking geeks how long a football field is let alone visualise one is assuming the wrong geeks. im mildly displeased that it is assumed "Everyone" knows how long a football field is and this example is drummed up everytime someone asks.also, is this AFL, Soccer, or some other type of football. I do not know how to weld. Football field was the first analogy, pretty much anything that isn't an oval is about 100 metres. Rugby Union/Leauge, Football [soccer], American Football if you count the end zones, etc are all about the same length as they all come from the same sport originally. Someone else said swimming pool, well that's either 25 metres or 50 metres if it's a proper half olympic/olympic pool. I guess you're right though, the only sport a lot of geeks would understand is LAN games, especially on a forum like this. That's the thing though, I don't qualify myself as being a real geek.
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    Clother in summer.

    T-Shirt and shorts bellow the knees... it's far to hot for much else in Queensland. I do like wearing long sleeve shirts but not when it's over 28 degrees out.
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    Embarrassing Simple Things You Dont Know How to Do

    Yeah, left/right is something you persist with. I'm good once I've worked it out, it just takes me a few seconds.
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    Embarrassing Simple Things You Dont Know How to Do

    That's easy, quantify it... you know how long a football field is right? Well that's 100 metres, 90 metres for American football. As for myself, I still forget my left and right sometimes until I gain my bearings again. I didn't learn to tie my shoes laces until I was about 10 or 11, and I never worked out gladwrap until i was about 18 odd...
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    So I'm using Linux...

    APT vs APT-RPM... Mandriva is still an RPM based distro. I know you're gonna tell me APT is a package managment system and that packages in the case of Mandriva are RPMs I still like to differentiate between the two.
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    My 1961 EK holden

    Cars are shits of things, I just spent 3/4 of the morning replacing a bump strip on my car as the screws on the other one rusted through and it fell off. I had noticed it but forgotten about... no yay for 80's crap boxes. If there's one thing I hate more than most other things it's working on cars... not mentioning the $17 for a can of bumper black to match the rest of the bump strips on my car. It's really the last thing I felt like doing on my last free day off. Oh well, I fixed it good and proper... pulled another one off a wreck, rust converted the back of it and primed it before getting round to the front and putting a new coat of paint on it to match the car. It'll be another few more years if that ever rusts through by which time I'll be rid of this car and have a decent job. The joys of being a uni student and having to fend for yourself. If I asked a panel beater to do the same he'd probably smile and say a couple hundred bucks in my time and labor.
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    Girls names

    Queen of the desert
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