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aquilus

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  1. Most recently, these things:

    Sennheiser Momentum In-Ear Wireless review | What Hi-Fi?

    I delayed getting on the Bluetooth headphone bandwagon for a long time and stubbornly clung on to my 3.5mms, but after killing like my fifth pair of Momentum in-ears I decided that $299 would be cheaper in the long run.

    Time will tell.

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  2. High school Digital Media class - would have been around 15 or 16 at the time, which would put it in 2001. I went to school with a couple of guys who browsed the forums and ended up wanting to see what it was they were up to. The rest is history.

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  3. 3 minutes ago, Fenn said:

    Like so many of you, when I think of Atomic the first thing that comes to mind are the friendships: the dozens of beautiful, wonderful people who are now some of my best friends; the hundreds of others who I love to hang out with at meets or parties; the thousands of casual acquaintances I always knew I could chat with and have fun with. Atomic was - is - a safe place. I can be myself here. I have always felt accepted without judgement (except by Leonid, of course). I've argued, flirted, joked, complained, trolled, insulted, lectured, fought, forgiven,  partied, changed my mind, made friends with some people I never thought I would be friends with. Through sixteen years Atomic has been the backdrop against which I grew up.

     

    That's enough. It should be enough. I have made more close friends on Atomic than any other place - schools, unis, workplaces, hobbies. And yet - Atomic is more than that. It must be more than that, because I know that when the lights go out in the Green Room for the final time all those friendships will still be here; but I am in tears tonight as I have been every night since I heard the news. I am grieving for something that is more than the friendships I made.

     

    It is no exaggeration to say that Atomic changed my life. In a very real way it set me on a completely different path. There are heaps of Atomicans who have gone into IT-related fields, or into journalism, thanks to their involvement with the magazine; my journey was a little different. One day someone posted a farewell letter on Atomic. Someone saw it, and flagged it with a mod. The mod called someone, who called someone else, and eventually a panicked someone called AD - they thought we might know this person in meatspace, could we find their real name or address? Could we get the police there?

     

    We dropped what we were doing and ran for the car. While one Atomican called the police, we drove as fast as we could to his house, and I found myself sitting on the back steps feeling my way through my first ever suicide intervention, hoping like hell I could reach through the pain to convince this desperate man that there was a good reason to survive until tomorrow.

     

    There were others. Sometimes in my PMs, sometimes in chatrooms or text messages, there were other Atomicans. It kind of got to be a habit. I don't know why you chose me. I don't know what you saw in me that made you reach out to a judgemental, holier-than-thou, argumentative brat but you did, and I came to understand that somehow this is something I'm good at. Better than that, it's something I love.

     

    Eventually I decided I shouldn't keep blindly fumbling my way through crisis interventions, and I should get some training. I went off to Lifeline and applied to be on the phones. By the end of my six month training period - before I'd gotten onto the phones, in fact - they had offered me a full time job as a trainer. I quit my (high paying, very cushy) job in workers compensation and plunged into the (much lower paid and completely insane) world of a Lifeline trainer. I've not only done hundreds of suicide interventions, and answered a thousand other crisis calls, I've trained a dunnamany people in how to cope should they find themselves in the situation I faced that first day when I sat on the cold concrete wondering if I was saying the wrong thing, if this conversation would end with life or death.

     

    I don't know - I can't know - whether any one conversation I had with an Atomican made any real, long term difference. If you hadn't spoken to me, you would have spoken to someone else. You might have gotten through it on your own. But you set me on this path, and I have saved lives. Maybe not in the same way as Noddy (and I sure as shit can't tell you any of the hair-raising stories), but there are people who lived another day because of me. It started with you, Atomic.

     

    I remember when you reached out to me when I was suffering back in the day (and I never properly thanked you for it I don't think, so believe me, I am thankful). It doesn't surprise me that you've taken that compassion and made a life's purpose out of it.

    You're good people.

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  4. 10 minutes ago, Nich... said:

    We were pretty much giant cunts to each other for a time, and looking back, I can't tell if I'm more likely to laugh or cringe at how self important we were and how pointless it all was.  I'm glad you found your way through to the other side and life has been a lot kinder to you (and you, it).


    I've done my fair share of both cringing *and* laughing, heh! Personal growth and all that.

    Thank you though, I appreciate it. It feels pretty good to have a much better perspective about the whole thing.

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  5. 18 hours ago, Nich... said:

    Also (last also), for at least a large chunk of the first decade of this place, I was a temperamental, erratic, emotional mess at times, so thanks to the people that put up with my shit, those that helped me grow into a better person, and especially those that stuck around and kept in contact when I was determined I wasn't worth it.

     

     

    FWIW (admittedly I was very much an insecure and angry guy at the same time), you definitely seem happier. It's good to see!


  6. 6 minutes ago, elvenwhore said:

    And I'm glad to read I'm not the only one who thinks back on all my old posts and cringes 😄 

     

    I have oddly mixed feelings on this. Some of my older posts I actually really liked, but man, there were some periods where I was going through an insecure angsty edgelord phase and it showed.

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  7. 1 hour ago, hulkster said:

    I spent far far too many hours here and it may have helped my marriage fail. ( Not the forums, me on the forums  🙂  )

     

    Yeah, can relate. Didn't lose a marriage over it thankfully but my involvement with the place was getting quite unhealthy.

    Getting myself banned might have been good for me in that sense.


  8. Far, far too many. The Great Jafar and Xenu being my most prominent ones. The rest were kind of done on a spur of the moment kind of thing for a particular scenario, and to be honest I kind of got waaaay too carried away in hindsight.


  9. Found my way on here as a teenage youth more than half a lifetime ago. I have to admit I wondered if atomic would still be here after we all died, it was a tenacious community.

    Made a lot of friends here, lost a lot of them too, but the ones that I've retained to the current day are some of the best people I've ever known and I would be poorer for not having known them. In that sense I guess I couldn't have found them without being here and owe that to here.

     

    I've moved on by and large now, and probably for the best on a personal level, but there were some wonderful memories and people here, and I'll miss 'em.

     

    The Manta

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  10. Yes we're talking figurative. Don't arrest me ASIO ;D

     

    I think it's the 'no exoneration over obstruction' that merits waiting and seeing. That makes it sound like Orange Joffrey ain't out of the woods just yet.

     

    I hope they do make the report public. It's certainly in the public interest.


  11. 2 hours ago, Kimmo said:

    Sadly, I'm tipping even Barnyard isn't too fucked in the head to know he should keep a low profile until after the election. 

     

    Still, it's hard to judge - he was too fucked in the head to know it before last week. 

    The human goonbag seems convinced Australia wants him. It's hilarious.

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  12. 1 hour ago, Cybes said:

     

    Personally, I would much prefer that everyone kept their fucking hair on and their dicks in their pants while we let multiple sources cover all of what has been said.  That too much to ask?

    That's how I'm taking it right now. There's a lot of stuff going on we aren't privy to, so it's way too early to oil the guillotine *or* squelch all dissent.

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  13. 41 minutes ago, eveln said:

    so, free beer and assault, for the assaulter, are okay for a person speaking their mind ... hope you guys are down with that when physically confronted with someone who doesn't like what you say.

    I hope if I ever piss on the graves of fifty innocent people that someone *does* egg me in the head. Maybe it'll undo whatever brain damage I suffered.

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  14. There’s a certain angle - and I’ve only seen it maybe two or three times in Pyne’s career - where the man is an absolute dead ringer for Beavis from Beavis and Butthead. It’s still my prime association with him, even if most of the time it’s not there.


  15. Gotta admit I never quite knew how to take Pyne.

    He spent so much of the last six years dithering between fawning bootlick and loose cannon that I can't help but wonder if his whole political career was just one giant troll.

    Still he did give us a gift, the time he dropped the C-bomb on the House floor was pretty funny.

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